When I write my story post and you are a reader of them then you may have noticed that I repeat many of the same messages but perhaps the story may change,
Its kinda like repetitive learning. Like when we listen to a favorite song over and over. Others call this brainwashing. But how I was living? My brain needed a good washing! LOL
I was harming myself in dark self-destruction and at the same time afraid of losing who I was. The enemy of humans and of God is a very clever evil that uses us against ourselves.
This hunter of faith whispers in our ears..... Lies!
But there is a voice of truth. And when or if you find it, then you will know the difference. However, with "Spiritual Discernment" comes the "Responsibility of Awareness".
"Who Am I Listening To, That I Do What I Do, Be It Right Or Wrong?"
Ya know in these chaotic and divisive times, the last thing we need is more judgment and less forgiveness?
Can folks change for the better? Or do we cast them aside like so many Christians that followed Jesus?
Are we not them? The oppressed and persecuted? Even in these times? For our faith and beliefs in an unseen Father?
I believe that Judgment is not ours to condemn the wicked as much as it to find the strength, courage, and will to forgive.
As impossible as it seems for us who have been so wronged or unimaginably damaged by another to find healing and peace through forgiveness it is possible.
To Forgive. But Never Forget. Is revenge, not the Lords? Because revenge, hate, anger, resentment, is poison to our souls. As if the revenge we take is upon our own selves.
In some way, do we blame ourselves for those wrongs done to us?
If I had done things differently then maybe they couldn't have harmed me?
I Am So Stupid To Allowed Them The Chance To Harm Me!
Had I not been there, where I shouldn't have been, none of this would have happened.
If I had not said what I said that provoked the harm, and I had done and instead I did what was expected of me, in the way my abusers wanted, I could have avoided all this.
"What Did I Do Wrong To Deserve This?" Why God? Why Did This Have To Happen? Why Did You Allow All This? What I Did Do?"
Are we so in control of our mission and strategies that we will have the retribution and vengeance that we have so longed for? Have we all our lives in dark places planning it all out that will bring us justice, satisfaction, and closure?
And as we seek revenge on our abusers, (even if they are no longer living) we know it will never happen. Because we can never change what occurred in the past to us. And the past is one second ago.
Without healing and forgiveness, we are likely to pass on all our hurt and pain to the next innocent victim. We may never know or understand Love and Peace. Prisoners. Incarcerated in emotional bondage.
Are We, They?
If we do pass on our legacy of fear, not only does the anger spread, but we are still the same. So what was the point of revenge? Where is the end of it all? What has changed?
God loves a sinner. God loves us for our imperfections. He uses the broken hearted as vessels for his word of hope.
Doing wrong can be an opportunity to learn to live right. Wisdom comes from experience, And perhaps our worst can be our greatest wisdom.
If we learn from them. If we ask for forgiveness for ourselves that brings some peace that we may forgive those who trespass against us.
Some folks in the world serve the adversary. The enemy of God, While others simply are lost in the world as I was in the past. From circumstances and situations that were beyond my control as a child.
As I grew to became an adult I was still the damaged child for decades. The past was all I knew. To do to others what was done to me.
I didn't know in those decades that I was reliving the dark days of my youth over and over, again and again, each day.
And then one day as I was lost, suddenly I was found. When I was blind in an instant I could see. I didn't know this stranger to me. But he said to me, "Come Unto Me. Let Me Show You A Better Way. Follow Me",
And so I did.
I am still following today. Although I have a very, very, long way to go. Progress Not Perfection.
And although I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil. For you are with me always. Thy rod and staff they do comfort me.
Fear Is The Enemy. And Anger Perpetuates It.
And Lord, My Father, In Your Name, I Embrace An Infinite And Eternal Abundance Of Love And Forgiveness.
For I Am Still A Child. A Child of God. And Only Through You Can There Be The Return To Innocence. That Which Can Make My Mind And Heart Pure And Free Again.
Thanks for letting me share again. Peace, Love, and Healing.😍🙏🤩
Howdy there. My Name is Clay Burton. I was born in Galveston County, Tx in 1963 and have lived in Hitchcock Tx. for at least 40 years now. but only the past year or so I have become a very active volunteer in local community services here in Hitchcock.