Acting my age all depends on what kind of mood I am in

Acting my age all depends on what kind of mood I am in, where I am at, what's going on around me, and who I am with at the moment.
Some call me CrAzY.
Haters gonna hate, ya know?
Better you, than me.
But, I love ya anyway, because God says so.
Took me a while to figure that one out.
How can I love somebody who hates me?
Love thy enemy?
Pray for thy enemy?
Why?
Lord, you're sure asking an awful lot of me.
I had to change everything about who I was, and how think, in order to understand forgiveness.
And forgiveness is not always for my enemy to find peace, but perhaps, more so, about me acquiring peace in my own heart.
You see if I hate my enemy back, as they do me', am I any different than they are?
They are angry, and now I am angry.
Nope, not me.
I have paid my dues in that hell hole for far, far too long.
Yes, Sir, I am crazy!
lol.
I am so crazy, that am not afraid of most things that I should be afraid of.
Anger is a product of fear.
So you're just going to have to find someone else to bully.
I cannot be certain that there is even going to be another tomorrow.
So I have no energy left, to spend on wasteful, useless, and time-consuming, emotional, negativity.
And that means, that I am loving each day more, as I get older and wiser.
And it also means that I am having more freedom and fun now than ever before, in my life.
My heart and mind grow younger and closer to God.
And that's why I can love you.
like he does.
God doesn't just help those who help themselves.
He helps everyone.
Anyone.
And he loves all those who don't love him back.
Maybe he loves them even more.
That's what true love is.
Unconditional.
Without offering love, there can be no opportunity for those who would hate, to find it.
If I have been forgiven, then I must forgive.
If I was given love then I must give it away, so that I may keep it.
So, no matter what feels like, or look like, at any given time, I'm always living in love.
But don't push my buttons.
​Clay Burton 2022